Sad.Tired.Bloated.

The above title explains all...Have you ever encounter this kind of situation?
One week of silent days...not going anywhere..nobody invite/ask you to go out...you feel bored for while... but yeah life has to go on. Then suddenly week after or mybe this particular week.. out of sudden, ppl sms-ing you bringing you out, then another msg came from your bff asking you out, then another friend's friend asking for a favour, then another stranger asking you out.. All this happen in within 3-4 days or even within 24 hours. Driving me nuts!! I don't know which to cancel which to reject...how to.......so, basically I have to accept all the invitation? Crazy~~

Addicted to online shopping

The reason that I restrain myself from going out is to stop myself buying stuffs from shops.... but even staying at home won't change also. Cus shopping online is much more easier with just a simple click, click, click and click!!! omg!! I have to stop shopping~~~!!! Help!

missing you

I've been missing you,
on and off.
Not knowing what to do,
feeling hopeless.

Yesterday was a bad day,
wish you were there,
wish I wasn't there.

Still feeling tired and pain,
Can I have peace with you?

You once told me it is possible,
Reality is ugly.

We knew it is impossible.

Stubborn me

Yes. I am one stubborn person. No one can control me or direct me what should and what not to do. You always thought you understand me and that you thought what you think is right. So stupid! Trying to get sympathy from ppl and trying to show something.. Seriously, I don't like that kind of person. Maybe I really don't know what is love, what is care. Cus I never had one. And I don't think I want it. Let me be alone and you can go away if you feel suffered, as I am too! You don't have to tell ppl how suffering is your situation for not being able to do this that this that..... Leave when you can't handle. Stop questioning. Period!

Morning. Bad.

Argh.... I wanna shout. Get me out of here! My morning started ok until....this 1 moment, change everything. Now my morning is ruined! Being committed or showing your care doesn't mean you have to appear in front of that person every second! Like EVERY SECOND! I need privacy dude! Leave me alone. Give me 'my me' time.

Soothing myself

with Sun Yan Zi 孙燕姿 - Wo Huai Nian De 我怀念的



love the melody of the song..
it's a sad and touching song.
dedicated to my friend, you know who you are.

Happy Happy

Because today will be the day that I will...........

ok, I don't know how to continue with the sentence. But am so happy at this moment, this second. Only. =D Few minutes later, I know I won't be.

When I'm happy ...
I can do house chores happily..
I can cleanse myself without feeling stress...
I can bath longer than I would...
I can eat moderately...
I can do my own personal work...
I can rest & relax...
and most importantly I don't have to think unnecessary things!

Yay me!

the ugly truth

No, this is not the review of the ugly truth movie. Been busy, stress, and 'blank' these few weeks. People talking... things happen. You didn't expect it. Everything changed. This feeling sucks eh..


"Happy Friendship Day!!! Friendship Forever!!! We are so gonna be BFF*!!! Yeah... Haha. "

I'm sure everyone have this 'bff* thingy' in their life... well, for the start...


Not long after that? 5 years after that? What happen?

Ever happen to you? How do you define 'best' and 'forever' ?


*bff - best friends forever

One Simple Change...

This month has been a sucky month for me. At the same time, I felt glad for making those decisions. Those 'decision-maker-attitude' that I should have since long time ago.

Being a magazine-lover-buyer, I seldom finished reading the articles (more to flipping the girls' stuff. Hehe!) But today while clearing up my mags, I found this article from the 'Shape' magazine.

If you do 1 thing this month...
learn to say no
You'll take back your time and lower your stress.

"Women are taught to be nurturing, and they fear that turning down a request will make them seem selfish", says Susan Newman, Ph.D., a social psychologist and author of The Book of No: 250 Ways to Say It- and Mean It.

For my article collection :

The next time you're confronted with anything from a party invite to a request for bake sale goodies, curb that automatic yes response and ask yourself, Will I look forward to this or dread it? If it's the latter, decline. (Try, "I'd love to, but I'm just too busy."). After turning down a few requests and realizing that others aren't put out by your refusals, you'll stop feeling guilty.



Reference : One Simple Change. SHAPE. December 2008. pg 128.